A knot deep in my stomach-
An unbearable growing pain
Containing breaths and scars,
Momentary intervals of our life's game.
A knot in my throat,
Choking me before the rise,
Depriving us of understanding,
Taking away left time.
A tidal wave devours my skin,
Casting me bare, without a kin-
Without the courage this blast to bare,
Stolen from time,
Convicted to just stare
At every day that passes by,
At my lack of bravery,
My egoistic past wounds drive
Safekeeping me against the ones
I should be the least afraid to love.
A knot is tied around my heart,
Bred inside it for years-
For too damn long for me to claim
Despite the drain I still have one.